(My apartment block in Benalmadena Spain)
I DIDN'T MOVE............
(a poem I wrote after the breakup last year from a relationship)
I didn't move from The Costa Del Sol
Away from the weatheer so hot.
To remain in an apartment so boring,
If that's what you thought......well I did not.
We never go anywhere special,
Each day is the same I declare.
Shopping is the highlight of the day,
What do you bloody well care?
I didn't move from The Cosata Del Sol
To feel as unhappy as I do.
I came because I thought we had a future together,
A future between me and you.
(picture of me and son)
You think a trip to The New Forest
Would satisfy me for another year.
We were only out for two hours,
Frightened to miss Countdown on TV I fear.
Everything has to be your way,
Well perhaps that can be dealt.
You've hated me from the time I moved in,
You've known all along how I've felt.
I tried to keep my thoughts to myself,
God knows how hard I've tried.
I don't need the toilet as often than you think
I've gone into the toilet and cried.
Cried for the mistake I made.
On coming back to the UK.
Cried for what I thought it was going to be like
But I was taken in all the way.
I would be out of here like a shot
But I've nowhere to go....or the cash.
I'm beginning to detest every day spent with you,
You've made my life one big hash.
How I long for a "Life",
A life you cannot give.
"You're along time dead" so they say.
While I'm here I want to live.
If only I could turn the clock back.
But of course that can't be done.
It's too much trouble to get off your backside,
To go out and have some fun.
I didn't move from The Costa Del Sol,
To be with a miserable "Man" like you.
There's not many people like you around,
God broke the mould when he made you.
(Near the beach Benalmadena Costa Del Sol)
*I've omitted the abuse afflicted on me*
Copyright Yvonne Lewis 06/2008