Wednesday 16 October 2019

ONE YEAR ON:

I've returned to blogging after a break
Yesterday was the first anniversary on my son's passing
(Pic Above)
It was a very truamatic day so say the least/
ONE YEAR ON:
Yesterday I felt drained,
Drained of all emotion I guess.
I haven't felt well for a while.
To you I must confess.

You see it's the time of the year,
That life dealt me a dreadful blow.
The passing of my son John/
I'm still not over it you know.

Yesterday I saw or spoke to no one.
Not a text from any of my kin.
To see how I was coping.
Not a glimmer of light peeped in.

Over the past week or so/
The paramedics have called on me.
Experiencing shortness of breath,
They gave me an "ECG"

All was and is ok with my heart,
Except that it's broken in two.
We've had continual rain here,
So could not go out and see the views.

I must pull myself together,
Life goes on I know.
John would not like to see me like this,
In his heart was always a glow.

Just to prove that life does go on,
This morning shopping I saw a new sight.
During the days I've not been out
Theyv'e erected  the Christmas Lights.

HAVE A WONDERFUL WEDNESDAY:

Yvonne Lewis: 16/10/2019:

16 comments:

  1. Been thinking of you and glad to see your post. Hang in there. You've been doing okay. Write a super special poem today for your book. Glad you got out - fresh air helps. And I'm sure your son would want you thinking positive....Take care

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    1. Thanks Joanne for your wise words, have not done much on book for a few weeks but will return writing next week.

      Yvonne.

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  2. My heart goes out to you, Yvonne. I remember the first year anniversary of my husband’s death over 5 years ago. It’s still hard now and I’ll never be the same person I was. And I don’t expect myself to be that person. But I am trying to get better and develop a support system. And I am. I hope you do too.

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    1. Many thanks for your comment Natalie, I do appreciate people's support.

      Yvonne.

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  3. Oh Christmas does come early in the stores. I went to buy a Christmas tree and I got the last one of its kind. Crazy. Now that store is sold out of that tree.

    I wish I could say something to ease your pain, because nothing will erase it, but nothing I say will ever lessen your pain. I agree that John would want you to live your best life even if he's not here, but he would also, I imagine, understand why this is a difficult task.

    Praying for you on this day, Yvonne.

    Teresa

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    1. Thank you for the prayers Teresa, also your kind words.

      Yvonne.

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  4. What a sweet picture of your son and his wife on their special day. I'm sure it won't ever be easy on October 15 for you, Yvonne, no matter how many years have gone by. I'm sorry no one in your family reached out to you yesterday. It is a good reminder for us to make sure we reach out to those who are hurting and on days that may be harder than others for them. So sorry to about your health scare! Glad your physical heart is okay; it is often very difficult to fix a broken heart but I hope it can mend just a tiny bit in the days, weeks, months and years to come.

    betty

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    1. Yes Betty it is a lovely picture, Oct. 6th his birthday and the 15th are two dates that will always stay fixed in my mind.
      Thanks for the lovley comment.

      Yvonne.

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  5. I'm so sorry you are dealing with this, Yvonne. I can't begin to imagine. I hope today is much, much better.

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    1. It's been a nightmare but there must be many more mother's out there in the same situation.

      Yvonne.

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  6. It's hard, Yvonne, I know, to face life. You have the lovely memories. No one can take those from you. My son and husband will always be in my heart. Have a relaxing rest of the week. Hugs.

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    1. Thank you Beverly, you know only too well what I'm going through and what you say is right.... you can't take the memories aaway.

      Yvonne.

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  7. It's hard to believe it's already been a year! I know there still must be a lot of pain in your heart, but hopefully with each passing year it will be a little less. Hugs!

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    1. Thank you Sherry for your comment and "Hug".

      Yvonne.

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  8. What a beautiful photo of John and his wife that you chose share, Yvonne! It makes me happy to see the two of them at their wedding. I'm glad to see you posting again, and I'm sorry that I missed this on Wednesday. It was not for lack of thinking of you. Thank goodness your physical heart is okay! You've been through so much emotionally, so it's not surprising that you felt short of breath. Emotional pain is as acute as physical pain, and it can be unrelenting. I'm betting that John would want to see you experiencing pleasure and joy in your life. I hope each passing day brings you more of both. The caretakers in our complex have been putting up Christmas lights today. No way am I ready for Christmas. Take care!

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    1. It was a lovely wedding in Spain Louise, the first time I went there. They were a lovely couple without a doubt. Emotional pain aas you say is unrelenting but one has to try and overcome it.
      Thanks for the lovely comment.

      Yvonne.

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